Undesirable Emptiness,

<sub>Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cause I fear I might break
and I fear I can't take it
Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all of the days that we spent
Carried away from home

Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty</sub>

Pressure - Paramore

Seriously, how could you do that to her?! I don't even know her but I dont ever care!but on that note I don't even know you.
I dont even know if what I knew of you was real
You're one in seven billion people, and you got narrowed down into the list of people that has shook my world... for all the wrong reasons it seems
I thought you we're different, I take it back, you're not amazing, you're just another selfish dirtbag of a boy.
I hope the next girl you screw over has enough respect for herself to give you whats coming, saying sorry doesn't give you the right to do anything, its not a free pass.
When will you wake up and realise living isn't all about yourself! I sincerely hope you get a rude shock when you start trying to live life and get fucking no where because you "don't know"! Man the fuck up, your fucking 18, Life isn't going to get given to you on a silver plater.

*breathes*
...okay, i'm really sorry. rant and tears aside, lol... (I might delete that part later)
I was thinking today, bout thinking. and avoidance it seems. and how, it can take ages for your mind to process something, so over the days after something bad happens, it hits you, a realisation of sorts, but as qucikly as it came you're kind of left with a half finished sentence. Like the inside of your mind has let something slip and gone "oh fuck" and quickly put it back under lock down.

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sorry guys
I'll be normal again soon, I promise.
Also I just realised, I kind of contradicted my artwork LOL my bad.